I was a sincere Seventh-day Adventist who wanted to be a pastor. However, as I tried to be honest with God about my conviction there was something that bothered me deeply. So in December, 2000 I wrote the following letter to my pastor.
Please accept warm greetings in the wonderful name of Jesus Christ our brother and friend.
I have been baptized at the Lewis Store S.D.A church for almost four (4) years now. However, for over two years now my conscience has been wrestling with the issue of honest to God, as I realize that my baptismal vows were taken dishonestly since I did not really understand all the things I said yes to.
I am hereby seeking to be re-baptized, however I do not want to take any vows as I am still unsure about all the things I am expected to say yes to. I realize though, the need to be born again as Jesus has specifically stated, “Ye must be born again”, and I really feel that my rebirth was not a true experience as I should have displayed the greatest form of honesty to God.
I am requesting a personal Bible study with you so that my concerns can be addressed. I may be contacted at the following numbers: ….
Thanks for you kind assistance and I earnestly await your call or letter of response.
Your brother in Christ,
My pastor did not respond to me in any form. I spent many years struggling with this – wondering if true honesty can be found in the Adventist church. Despite my passion for ministry and the work of God, I have been inactive in bringing others to Adventism because of this struggle.
Almost eight years after this letter I finally decided to leave the S.D.A Church and joined the Seventh-day Baptist Church in search of a true baptism, however I realize that I left without ever seriously confronting anyone on this matter.
What is your view on the matter? What do you believe I should have done before leaving the S.D.A church? What do you believe I should now do? Can people who are deeply sincere and honest remain S.D.As?